Is it possible to feel this otherworldly about another person? To just know? Is it really possible for love to be this easy? Oh, how we fit. Oh, this knowing. What a grand life. God, offer me humility and grace to receive this abundant too muchness, let me be kind to this love always. Let me revel in it, spread my arms in the sun of it. Happy Valentine’s Day, love.
“Ten times a day something happens to me like this - some strengthening throb of amazement - some good sweet empathic ping and swell. This is the first, the wildest and the wisest thing I know: that the soul exists and is built entirely out of attentiveness.” —Mary Oliver We spent last night in Minnesota in a treehouse cabin in the snow, cooking together & watching jeopardy, and I think it was my favorite nights we’ve had on this trip. As a storyteller, I want to catch this love in a jar like a firefly and share it wide and loud. But it’s all happening now, every moment. Electric. Impossible. We’ve been driving all over the country and every day has been filled with just... unbridled joy. Friends, family, walks with the pup, raw honey, good wine. Long drives and studio days, writing songs with some of my dearest friends. Beach sunsets, midwest sunrises, full bellies. While I was crying, overwhelmed by goodness, Paige said, “I love you more than the telling of it”. I am so full. What divine luck.
I haven’t been posting as much because I’ve been in the studio almost every day, trying to finish up this album! I’m so thankful I got the chance to stretch my legs yesterday and see the beautiful northwest in all its sun-bathed glory. Magnificent. My heart is full, my soul is at peace, and my body is nourished. I hope you’re all well and cared for in the new year. I’m sending calm, peace, and sunlight to you. 🌞🌲🌞🌲
The last few days, I’ve dedicated myself to engineering and programming, and have fully fleshed out a track on my own! This next album is produced by me, and now I can say, partly engineered by me, too! I wrapped up the other night and felt a wave of accomplishment & a new level of independence. I know it has taken years, but I promise, it will be worth the wait. My soul is written into every sound, lyric, melody; it’s embedded into the EQ, the reverb, the warmth of the audio. I cannot wait to share my masterpiece with you all. 📷: @one_chance_fancy
Incredibly heartbroken to hear of my mentor, Linda Waterfall’s passing. I spent 4 years under Linda studying songwriting at Cornish, and I would not be the writer I am without her guidance and persistence to find beauty in mistakes. In one of her last emails to me, Linda said “you are a manifestation of the goddess. I’m really going to miss you.” I’m really going to miss you too, Linda. Your heart was so big and pure and full of light & you made the world a better place just by existing. I wish we could have had tea one last time; I will think of you often and fondly.
I think it's tragic that loving your body unconditionally is a radical notion. I think it's tragic that our culture views fat bodies as failing bodies. I think it's tragic that our culture enforces the idea that there are "good" bodies, and "bad" bodies. Who wins if I hate myself? Who benefits from my shame? Who is profiting from my hurt? I refuse to let my insecurity be used as currency. Fuck your flat tummy teas, your appetite suppressant lollipops marketed to teens, fuck preying on young women's insecurity. Over it.